Figuring out your identity after the big fat indian wedding
Discover how Indian society conditions women to undergo a shift in "identity" after the big fat Indian wedding
Ok, the wedding bells have rung, the dance floor has witnessed your best moves, and the intricate mehendi has faded from your hands. Your Indian wedding extravaganza is over, and suddenly, you ask, "Who am I now?"
For us Indian women, the wedding isn't just an event; it's a seismic shift in our lives. We go from being daughters to wives, and with that transition comes a whirlwind of emotions, expectations, and a dash of confusion. The post-wedding phase is like the morning after a storm—you're left to pick up the scattered pieces and figure out where they fit. Throughout generations, Indian women have customarily embraced a new identity after marriage - involving changes in their name, way of life, domestic surroundings, principles, aspirations, or their role in a family system.
What is identity?
Identity is like a mosaic - it's a unique arrangement of individual pieces that together form a somewhat cohesive picture. Each piece represents our personality, goals, values, beliefs, ideologies, careers, and affiliations, all glued by our memory and experiences. New experiences re-adjust our neuronal circuits to have an updated mental framework of the world around us and where “we” lie within that framework.
According to developmental psychologists, identity development begins in adolescence to young adulthood and is affected by the balance of two parameters:
a. Based on your exploration of identity options
b. Based on your commitment to an identity
Exploration involves encountering new perspectives, while commitment is embracing a specific identity. For instance, Anya had a deep interest in writing and mathematics, but her parents urged her to pursue a career as an engineer. She enrolled in a creative writing course and apprenticed with journalists after completing her education. This exploration exposed her to the possibilities of a writing career and illuminated the challenges associated with its long-term stability. Drawing from her exploration, she ultimately chose to commit to a career in engineering while maintaining an online blog to pursue her writing passion.
Depending on where you stand in the spectrum between these two parameters, you can fall into the following categories:
Identity Diffusion: You have not explored identity options AND also haven’t committed to an identity. This might make you feel a sense of aimless drift and a lack of purpose in life. Individuals in this category may have low self-esteem, a deficit of meaningful friendships, and a lack of ownership or responsibility of their lives.
Identity Foreclosure: You have committed to an identity without any exploration. The commitment could be driven by social or parental pressures. Individuals in this category may constantly seek approval from authority figures and hold limited acceptance of change.
Identity Moratorium: You are in the exploration phase - whether that means testing new ideologies, values, goals, or a new “role” in your life. Individuals in this stage try to bridge the gap between “who they were” and “who they are now” which might cause confusion and anxiety due to uncertainty about your place in the world.
Identity Achievement: You have surpassed the moratorium stage and have constructed an identity based on your exploration. Individuals in this stage feel at peace and have a stable self-definition.
Healthy individuals solidify a sense of self or "who they are” around their 20s-30s. However, it's important to note that identity is multifaceted, encompassing various aspects such as career, religion, ideology, sexuality, and more. While you may have attained a clear identity in one aspect, you might find yourself in a state of diffusion, moratorium or foreclosure in other areas. This interplay between exploration and commitment is crucial for overall well-being and building a strong sense of purpose.
Our brains are wired to socially connect
Identity formation draws from two primary inputs:
1. Internal Perspective: Formed through self-perception and personal evaluation
2. External Influence: Shaped by how others, including family, friends, and societal norms, perceive us.
Intriguingly, a neuroimaging study (Lieberman 2018) conducted by the social neuroscientist Matt Liberman revealed that our brain has distinct regions for processing internal and external input. One region is egocentric and evaluates the “self” while the other assesses our societal position. Our sense of self is derived from the interplay of these two brain regions.
In India, where collectivism overpowers individualism, social norms play a heightened role in identity development. Wedding rituals like “kanyadaan” (giving away the bride), “bidaai” (farewell ceremony of the bride) or “jhal” (the symbolic transfer of responsibility from the bride's family to the groom) reinforce the narrative that the bride no longer belongs to her birth family. This represents a drastic shift in her self-perception, occurring quite abruptly.
This shift can be as subtle as changes in daily habits, such as waking up times, or as profound as changes in language spoken, ideologies, faith, affiliations, and roles within the family system.
The good news is experiencing a change in identity is good!
Experiencing a change of identity after getting married can be likened to grief stages, as Elisabeth Kübler-Ross outlined. Initially, there may be a sense of denial, a reluctance to acknowledge the changes in your life. This can be followed by feelings of anger directed towards society or the involved people. Bargaining may manifest as attempts to negotiate aspects of the new identity, seeking a balance between the old and the new. Depression may set in as this shift becomes apparent, leading to a sense of loss and confusion. Finally, acceptance will come, where you will embrace this new role in your life, and gracefully find a middle position that intersects your old and new self.
Not everyone will necessarily linearly go through these stages; some may skip or rearrange them. Regardless of your individual experience, it's important to recognize and validate your feelings. The abrupt shift in perception and belonging may naturally induce unease or a sense of drift. Yet, the moratorium stage offers a valuable opportunity for reflection. Embracing this period grants you the time and space to ponder, feel, and ultimately accept the changes.
An intriguing finding emerged from a study surveying a hundred individuals aged 21-30 in India. The results indicated that engaging in exploring different identities (moratorium) was associated with increased life satisfaction, whereas hastily settling on an identity (foreclosure or diffusion) was linked to lower satisfaction.
Life is inherently dynamic, characterised by transitions from one phase to another. Embracing your new identity, roles, and aspirations adds richness and interest to life.
I hope reading this blog helps you embrace the journey, for within these transitions lies the essence of a fulfilling life.
Dnyanada is a qualified Psychologist (Counselling), based in Nieuw West, Amsterdam, Netherlands.
With a commitment to mental health, Mrs Sahasrabudhe provides services in English, Hindi/Urdu and Marathi, including Acceptance and Commitment Therapy, Counselling, Counselling (Family), Counselling (Trauma), Mediation, Mindfulness and Therapy (Online).
Mrs Sahasrabudhe has expertise in Adjusting to Change/Life Transitions, Anxiety Disorders, Body Image, Depression and Emotional Abuse.
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